Well today was kind of a boring day. Didnt really do anything at all honestly. I got to hang out with Ry tonight. I swear I light up whenever Im around him. Im so happy when Im with him like I forget everything, all the worries and stress. And I just want to get to know him more, and more, I want to know his story, his pains, his stuggles, and his glory days and stressful days. I want to know everything about him.
I felt really bad tonight. He got into a really bad arugement with his mom. At first I thought it was because I was there but it was something to do with his brother. I dont really like the way his family treats him. I know that they werent really there for him growing up, but his mom seems really mean to him for some reason and like tonight his dad was talking about kicking his ass, he's said that he's already faught his dad a couple times. But I totally dont agree with that. His parents should not be like that at all and I feel really bad that he has to go threw that. I dont understand, its like his parents hate him. I just wanted to hold him tight like it would block the pain away, even though he's strong mentally and physically. I couldnt bare the fact that his parents would do and say some of those things. I realized that I do have feelings for this kid cause I only get protective like that with people I REALLY like. Only other guy I've felt like that I should always protect is my first love Conner. I feel like I could really fall for him. And honestly with my first love I was always scared because he always screwed around on me but this guy I think is totally different, and Im pretty sure I would trust him.One thing I didnt like tonight, he went to the bathroom and his phone went off. I didnt snoop or go threw it(im not that kinda girl) but I did see that I was from another girl asking if he was busy. I didnt say anything but it kinda bugged me. I figured he was talking to another girl, we're not together so I cant get mad. Im pretty sure that he's not fucking anyone else though. Thats what Im praying for at least.
I love that he has a past but is making a better of himself, I love that he has goals and amibition, I love his smile and his blue eyes. I love his story, and Im pretty sure I want to be in the next chapters. Im hoping he likes me as much as I like him. I dont wanna get my feelings down. I love this high I get whenever Im around him. Gah Im such in lala land, seriously lol.
But I weighed myself today. NOT good, I gained a pound. But tomorrow its back on track, 2 workouts in during the day and feeling the hunger inside me. Since I ate alot and have some energy I think Im gonna just got on a liquid diet. Im about to go to sleep now but Im waiting for Ry to call me so I know he got to his grandparents safe. Im actually worried about this kid and that never happens to me.
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