FATTY ASS.

I don't want to write much, besides I feel FAT. I did good this morning, went to my little brother and sisters pumpkin patch thing and it was filled with fattening sweets. I said no to all of them even the hot dog I was craving, and the caramel apple that I was REALLY wanting. I went home and had some fat free yogurt which was about 110 calories. I hadn't really worked out today besides this morning helping catch balls for the little boys baseball team I help coach, and playing on the play ground with them for a little while. But around 2 I went to a birthday party with my family and again I INDULGED. I ate alot of really good food. Then threw it right back up. Drank to much soda, passed on the cake, we were there for a long time. I just got home 20 minutes ago and its 12 now. I ate a second time got rid of that. But I'm not feeling that hunger or accomplishment of eating good. Tomorrows a new start again I hate the weekends cause I always do this. I'm good all week and whenever I do something it includes foods. I'm VERY scared to look at the scale tomorrow. I weighed myself this morning I'm about the same but I'm not completing my goal for a pound everyday. I'm gonna try harder tomorrow. Oh and me and Ry are good again. We are suppose to hang out in the morning so I'm happy about that. It seems to be going better with him so I'm hoping for the best. I really like him. And that kinda scares me because I still have the voice in the back of my head of watch out he's playing you. But I think that about all boys.