Is fear a factor for you?

Well today was as boring as any other day, but I was more productive in my working out range which I'm pleased with myself, cleaned a little bit, jogged quite a while and now I just did some ab and legs exercises. Today one thing I realized is I need to start working out more often. When I was health I could run a mile with ease, now I find myself struggling. In cheerleading we stretched everyday so flexibility was my strength now I can barely do any of it. So tomorrow I'm going to make a check list of daily routines that I need to do along with taking my vitamins(I fail at that) I weighed 129.8 today, it seems like my body loves this number that I'm not pleased with. I had a pretty big salad for dinner which I'm kind of worried about(even though I probably shouldn't be) Still always ana's in the back of my head tell me that I shouldn't have ate though. Hopefully that salad won't stunt my weight tomorrow. Hopefully that mile run evened out the calorie score.

So I can't explain my joy of fear factor episode. I love that show, I think because growing up that was an annual show me and my mom always watched. Now that I'm a legal adult I'm going to try to get on the show with my best friend. I think it sounds fun. Although I wont enjoy the eating part I love everything else, I'm a very competitive person and I think I could do most of the stunts they have. First I want to get my life on track, get fit, start college and be successful. I'm sure they wouldn't want me right now. I depressed low life who sits at home all day?  NEXT. But once I get my happy bubbly self back I really think they would choose us. It's worth a try at least right?

Also I've decided instead of buying christmas presents for everyone I'm going to bake fabulous goodie treats. Sounds like a good plan to me, I get to practice my cooking skills and everyone loves sweets(and wayy cheaper). I've got my pamper chef training tomorrow which I'm dreading yet excited about. I get to do something I love but I'll be surrounded by food, I guess this will be the test I'll have to deal with the rest of my life. So lets get to it and get it over with, I can stay strong and do this, I can do thin. I just have to go in with the right mind set.